In 2012, I met my now husband while I was working at John Deere. We got married in August 2014. The day before we got married, August 22nd 2014, John Deere had announced a huge layoff of over 550 people. Luckily, my husband nor I were impacted but many of our friends were. I knew that we would need to make alternate plans upon returning home from our honeymoon in Punta Cana, DR.
In November 2014, I started a new job for a locally owned business. At first it was great, I had taken our blessing that we avoided a layoff, got a new job and loved what I was doing and learning. That lasted for 20 months before I was suddenly (truly pulled into the bosses office on a Friday morning at 8:15am) forced into a position that I had zero training in. July 2016 will forever be etched in my brain, as that is when the unhealthy relationship with my job began. I was torn, I couldn’t afford to loose my job so I was now a doormat at my job. I worked so hard to do my best but it was never good enough. The constant battle to keep trying and pushing to be better and do better started to take its toll on me. I started to have medical and marital problems, which led me down a very dark path.
Fast forward to June 22, 2018 - right after lunch I got pulled into the bosses office again. This time, I was getting a written warning for “having a bad attitude” and the spiral began.